Spanked!

Well I think I need to start this post by telling you about my VERY first spanking experience. It was in my first marriage, and I was 20. My husband was 22 and he had come home from the bar really drunk. We had never dabbled with any type of kink, let alone spanking. I wasn't really excited about him going out to bars and getting drunk with a bunch of other women and then coming home and wanting very animalistic sex. He would basically force me. Now at this stage in my life I would welcome that but please understand I have come so far in my personal discovery since then. So here I am, unhappy that he was out drinking with some gal pals, and even less happy about the fact that I knew he was going to want it and not just regular sex but turn me over, pin me down and force it, even anally. We are in the middle of it and I'm basically just waiting for it to be over so I can go back to sleep and out of no where he smacks my ass so hard and so fast and so many times, I actually had welts. I was in tears, and I was scared. I had never seen him like that and we had never discussed anything like that. The only good thing was that it made him cum very quickly. When it was over I went out and laid on the couch and cried myself to sleep. The next day we had major argument and he swore he'd never do it again. The relationship didn't last another 9 months and he was able to keep that promise through that 9 months. So you see, my first experience was dreadful.

I have been with my DH for 9 years now, and in the last 2 years we have made small changes in the way we play and I have discovered that there are some things that I really enjoy that I would have never in a million years (based on my spanking experience) thought that I would like. 1. I love love love to be choked. 2. I love to have my hair gently, but firmly pulled. 3. I love to be scratched slowly, with firm pressure. 4. I am really into bondage. Tie me up, then tie me down... please! So I have decided to try to block out my first spanking experience and open the door to that possibility.

Yesterday, I ignored my alarm clock and I didn't finish all my chores, and then I corrected my Master when he gave me instruction. What a bad kitty am I. I have so much to learn. This has obviously earned me some discipline. So last night I received my first disciplinary spanking. My master took it easy on me and I got 3 (one for each offense I believe) semi-hard smacks on my naked ass. I learned this: I didn't hate it, I could have endured more spanks and harder spanks, and although I don't see it being a primary part of my eroticism, I can definitely see that it will have it's place.

Side note: New decisions- 1. I will call my DH, Master. I'm liking this more and more as I say it. 2. I have been collared as it pertains to us. We just received them in the mail yesterday and we had a very intimate experience where we acknowledged the significance of the collars. A symbol of my gift of surrender to him, as well as a symbol of his ownership, and promise to take care of me. It was very emotional for me. With tears in my eyes I look at my Master with all the love inside me. I am such a happy and blessed woman.